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Axiom Verge 2 and identity degradation


So I recently played through Axiom Verge 2 and really enjoyed it. However, it really made me realize a depressing reality about my gaming hobby. That being said, out of the ashes I feel I've found inspiration to start blogging. This first blog is mostly just a personal story to set up future blogs. I'm mostly doing this for myself but I thought I'd make it public anyway just in case someone out there is bored enough to read through my senseless ramblings. Who knows, maybe it'll strike a conversation that'll lead to more gaming reccomendations or stories of their own. I dunno...

First of all, a bit of background about my experience with Axiom Verge 1 and 2. Last year my fiance and I were quarantined at home for 2 weeks at one point. Like many people had to deal with at the time but I digress. Having finished up my most recent long ass RPG (Trails of Cold Steel 2 for anyone that's curious) I was looking for something a bit quicker that I could easily finish in a day or two. I did a quick google search for good Metroidvanias since those tend to fit that particular bill nicely. Of the ones I hadn't played already, Axiom Verge seemed like as good a game as any to kill an entire day with. I mean, I suddenly had all the free time in the world so...long story short, I finished the game in basically one sitting and rather enjoyed it. It came close to replicating that Super Metroid feel while still having an identity of it's own.

Fast forward a good 8 months or so. Nintendo had their indie show case Direct. Within which they announced that Axiom Verge 2 would be dropping later that same day. So I excitedly purchased the game immediately and finished up my current project so I could indulge in the sequel to a game I remembered rather fondly playing during an otherwise depressing period of time. It got it's hooks into me quickly but after a good hour or two of hacking enemies away with a pick axe it dawned on me, did the first game use a melee weapon as it's primary method of attacking? I was dumbfounded by the fact that even though I had played the first game less than a year prior, I couldn't even remember something that fundamental about it. So of course I looked into it and sure enough, you use a gun primarily in the first game.

This may not seem like that big of a deal but for me it was kind of the tipping point that made me realise that I just don't have the same connection with games I play nowadays compared with games I played when I was younger. I suspected this for years because I have very vivid memories of the games I loved as a kid and I remember them like I just played them yesterday but games I played a month or so ago? I barely remember them at all. Or at least, I remember them being "good" or "meh" but I'd be hard pressed to say why. I don't know if games these days just aren't as memorable or if I'm just losing my mind. Or both. Maybe it's because I played those games during my formative years that they've dug their way deep into my psyche and are now a major part of my identity. Maybe it's just the nostalgia talking but I do long to have a connection like what I had with the games of yesteryear that I love so much. Unfortunately, I fear it is just no longer possible with my rigid adult brain.

So it is because of this that I decided to start blogging. I feel that if I reflect back on the games I play now while they're still fresh in my mind I won't forget them so easily and brush them aside like a chewed piece of gum that lost it's flavor. I thought maybe it'll help me indulge deeper with my lifelong hobby and maybe I can establish connections similar to those I had when I was a kid. I'll probably do small write ups of each game I play. My intention isn't really to write full on professional style reviews of the games, but just my experiences with them. My personal stories, you might say. Minor spoilers for Axiom Verge 2: I suppose it's only fitting that a game where the protagonist arguably loses her identity helped me realise that I was starting to lose mine. End spoilers.

I dunno, what do you think? Do you remember games from 20 years ago better than games from last year? Or am I just suffering from early onset alzheimers? Either way you made it to the end of my ramblings so thanks for stopping by!

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About Gonnzone of us since 12:50 PM on 12.04.2021

Hello and welcome to my humble little page. I decided to start blogging about video games in an attempt at indulging deeper with my life long hobby. A hobby in which has been pretty much hands down the biggest part of my identity since I was around 3 years old. (I'm 33 at the time of this writing) I mostly enjoy single player games since I can easily walk away from them and they'll be exactly how I left them when I come back. Also I've found that single player games tend to hold up better over time, given how multi-player games tend to change over the course of their relevancy, not always for the better, and one's enjoyment of them is dependent on whether not there's a good community behind them. But that discussion deserves it's own blog. I play a wide variety of series and genres. From mindless shooters to deep story driven RPGs. From obscure indie titles to big budget "triple A" titles and everything in between. My idea isn't necessarily to provide reviews of the games I talk about, but more to just describe my experiences with games in general.

Thanks for reading and I hope to see ya around!