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Book of the Month - My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness (NSFW)


WARNING: This book is NSFW and contains mature material. So please, if you are not old enough to view such materials, do not.

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Shit gets real this month.

For this month I’m spotlighting a graphic novel about a pretty serious topic: Depression. Yes, I really think this is a good idea. If you have depression (I do) then it can feel at times like you are you are all alone. Like no one understands how you feel. Like you are the only one who is going through the issues that you are going through. I know I’ve felt like that. And sometimes all you really want is to know that you’re not the only one.

And this is where this book comes in.


My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness by Nagata Kabi

143 pages

Genre(s): Manga, Biographical, Non-Fiction

My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness is available physically and digitally on Amazon. Since it's a graphic novel there is no audio version. Sorry.

My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness is a diary-esque story of author and artist Nagata Kabi’s experience with her depression. Originally started as a webcomic, it became popular enough that Kabi was able to get the comic into print. The story details many things surrounding her depression from how she discovered it, the symptoms of it, and how she eventually started working through it. It also discusses her realization that she’s a lesbian and her first girl-girl sexual encounter (which is also her first sexual encounter period).

Now the reason I’m spotlighting this book is because parts of it resonated with me. Not the lesbian parts, as I am a mostly straight male, but the depression parts definitely hit home for me. In the book Kabi discusses how a lot of her depression stems from a lack of love for herself. I too, have this issue. I’m often overly critical of myself and it makes making progress in anything very hard. Doing things often felt pointless because I never expected to succeed. The first Book Club is a good example of this shortcoming of mine.

There are some other parts of her depression that reflects my own, but I’d like to save some for people to discover from the book on their own. If you are someone who has depression, or know someone who does, or you’d just like to learn more about it, then I highly recommend this book. It’s a great firsthand account by someone who has experienced it. I have to admit that it will probably have more of an impact if you suffer from a similar type of depression as Kabi like I do. I actually cried while reading the book. It was reassuring in a bizarre way that I wasn’t alone in how I felt. And it’s helped me a lot since I’ve read it. I am eagerly awaiting Kabi’s follow up book My Solo Exchange Diary.

I hope you will consider checking out My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness (but only if you are old enough to, I mean it). See you next month with another book. Happy reading!

Author Trivia:

Nothing. She’s very reclusive. That’s all I got. No quote either. Here's some sample pages/panels instead.

MLEWL sample 1MLEWL sample 2MLEWL sample 3Just a side-note, there is humor in this book. It's not all this somber. I just wanted to include some of the parts that I identified with.

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About dephoenixone of us since 10:41 AM on 03.01.2016

Former Head of Destructoid's Unofficial Book Club, Former Head of the Unofficial Book of the Month Club, Wes's Unofficial Father, and Self-Appointed Supreme High Priest of #TeamSandwich.

Super Mario Bros. 3 was the very first game (I remember) playing. Since then I have been a big fan of the medium.

I'm an avid gamer and aspiring writer. RPGs and platformers are my bread and butter, but I'm also a fair action/adventure guy too. Really there are no genres I outright dislike, just individual games. Every game genre offers something different, and I've come to love the variety. I feel the same way with comics, movies, manga, etc. Not really hung up on "genres", I just like what I like, and I don't care what genre it is.

Recently I've been trying to "break out of my shell" by getting out of my comfort zone and trying things I normally would not. Because of this I have discovered lots of new games, books, manga, shows, and movies that I now love. I do my part now to try to help others expand their horizons and get out of their own familiar space and try new things.

Destructoid has been a big help in getting me to broaden my horizons, and interact with more people outside my familiar circle of friends and acquaintances. I've come to love this site, and look forward to sharing more with you knuckleheads.