Dealing with Recent Failure and Moving Forward

I've played video games for as long as I can remember. I'm not just using a turn of phrase there, my first ever memory is literally five year old me celebrating as hard as I could because I made it to the underground level of Super Mario Bros on an old NES my parents bought me. Ever since that point I was hooked. I played and replayed games all the time, I watched videos, read magazines, gossiped about them at school. But, I'm sure if you are reading this you have similar experiences. You can fill in the blanks, so to speak.

However, recently I've been feeling the urge for more. I want to contribute to the industry and discussion instead of just ingesting it. This industry has been a huge part of my life and I want to be a part of it. I've already written before about how I have been rejected from some print publications. Taking that experience and what I learned from it, I decided to regroup and pair the skills I have in what I write with the skills I've had from other ventures in order to bleed my personality entirely into what I do. It is my intention for anybody to see what I contribute and understand who I am and where I am coming from.

So after my rejection letters came in it felt like I took a huge blow to the chest. I was out of it, in a slump and had little motivation for anything. Like most setbacks i've experienced, this took time to pass, and after the feeling of failure and the large amounts of alcohol I drank resulting from that wore off, I picked up the pieces and forged on. How could I make myself heard? How could I extend my personality as far as possible for people? I'm writing as passionately about everything as I possibly can. My heart and soul are in my words and I hope you feel it, but it helps to have more. That's how I came to the idea of recording videos for youtube.

For about two and a half years I hosted a radio program at my local university, aptly titled Jet Set Radio, where I discussed video games and what was going on in the industry while also playing some of my favorite tracks. It is because of this that I am pretty comfortable behind the mic. and know a decent amount about how to hold a radio conversation, which I later found out was only a part of the process. Next came time to actually put the idea into reality. I had a spot to record, the only problem was getting the equipment. I decided to sink a sizeable amount of cash to finance this venture and put in the man hours to sort everything out.

I've only been at this for a short time, but I've been putting in as much work as possible. I set up all the recordings and audio equipment, I learned how to create pixel art and give it a simple animation for the intro, I also learned enough about reading and writing music to write a quick jingle to go over the animation, and I'm trying my best at video editing. It's a lot of different skills to take in at once and I'm trying my hardest. It really comes through as you can see some steady progress in the videos I make.

I usually record with my brother, hence the name of the channel Radical Brothers Gaming, and a few other friends that are interested in stopping in. I'm trying to record and upload as regularly as I can, but I really hope you can come check out the channel and throw in some feedback. It would be much appreciated.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYukWA_cU7sSWNuU2-NG_LQ

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