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[NVGR] Where's the Music!?


Hello, friends. I wanted to write a blog to update you guys on several things.

First, a little bit of "promotion", I set up a Patreon, in case for some reason, someone felt like supporting me without having to pay for my music on Bandcamp. While the site mentions me using the money for hardware/software upgrades, there's a good chance it might end up going towards doctor bills, which I'll get to in a moment. There is only 1 "upgrade" I'm looking to get, which is Omnisphere 2, but I can save up for it. I'm not good at promoting myself, so I apologize for the scatterbrained paragraph. Patreon is a neat site.

Gonna knock out the doctor concerns. I finally decided to get a primary care physician, that can help me find the cures and treatments for my various conditions. I've already started taking a very good medication for my daily heartburn. I'm in the process of setting up Occupational Therapy sessions to deal with Sensory Processing Disorder, which is probably my biggest cause of pain and depression. My sense of touch is so amped up, that touching normal objects causes me a "ticklish pain-like sensation". I'd be seeing them 3 times a week for 4 weeks, and I don't know how much medicare will cover (I was told 80%, but I might be eligible for a charity program because I don't make any money).

I'm also looking into treatment options for my lower back. I've had a herniated disc in my lower back since I was 18 (34 now), so I've been suffering from that for so long, it feels like a normal part of my day, except when it flares up, and I end up in the emergency room because of the pain.

The least concerning issue, which I haven't brought up yet to my doctor, is my dandruff. I'm using clinical strength shampoo, and I still have issues.

All of this could potentially get expensive, but I can't live like this anymore. I need to address the issues with touch most of all. I'm not asking for money, just giving people options if they wanted to support me for some reason. I'm okay right now, even have a little extra money to buy GTA V on PC, so please consider that before sending money my way. I'm not rich, but I don't do much that costs money.

With all that out of the way, I wanted to talk about Songs for Gamers Volume IV. At the moment, the project is on hold, and I'm worried it could be an extended hold, similar to the gap between Volume I and II. There's also the possibility that it might not happen at all. Right now, I'm musically drained. I've written so much music in such a short time, that I feel like I have nothing left. Every time I think my batteries are recharged, I find out they aren't, and I write a song that doesn't sound like anything the person requested.

I want to keep people updated on what's been going on with me. Even if I was motivated to write music, all of these possible doctor appointments are going to eat away at me, because I've gotten so anxious, that the idea of going outside scares me. I don't know when it happened, or what exactly scares me, but I spend almost all of my time indoors, unable to go out and get groceries.

I think that's all I can say. If you have any questions, or want more information on something I wrote about, please let me know. If for some reason, Songs for Gamers Volume IV does not happen, I'm going to at least try to write the songs for people waiting 2-3+ years at this point, and combine it with Volume III. I hope that doctors are able to address my various conditions. Thank you as always for reading, and being a good friend.

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About Alphadeusone of us since 4:33 PM on 04.02.2012