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The Irresponsibility...Of An RPG'er


It reminds me of the scene in "The Dark Knight", where the Joker confronts Two-Face about "the schemers" and how futile their schemes really are. This reminds me of this. Even though I think I'm in control, it's the other side that control the puppet strings.

So my problem is meaningless then. Even if I create what I deem the perfect "storyline", it's not mine. It was made by writers sitting in a room.

But still, it makes it feel hollow. Like my storyline is artificial, like it's a fabrication...within a fabrication. because I do understand it's not real.

I finished Mass Effect, and against all my instincts, I stuck to my decisions, even if I didn't like the outcome. It wasn't as superficially nice as my previous RPG experiences, but in some way, I kinda felt like I was growing up (just a little). Like the whiny kid inside who whined about not having everything, was put away in a box. And a slightly older, less whiny kid emerged.

It's a start...besides, who wants to grow up anyway?

P.S If you finish this blog and think "WTF? Why have I wasted my time on this that doesn't make sense?", I give you the excuse of not enough sleep, too much excercise today, and a blog I did not devote my full attention to as I was watching the Walking Dead. So for that I apologize...

but I'm not fucking re-writing it.
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About PK493one of us since 2:53 PM on 04.12.2011

Alright, let's try this again.

My name is Alex. I'm 15 and I hide in my dark corner of the internet writing a so-called "blog" here on Destructoid. I think far too critically of myself which has reflected on my personality, as I'm cyncical and highly critical of...well a lot of stuff.

Anyway, games. It was all about the GameBoy Advance when I was young, and have grown up on an unhealthly diet of portable gaming (GBA,DS,PSP), a recent introduction of console gaming , lots of fictional media, and yummy food.

I'm lazy and very day-dreamy, non-committal and kind of temperamental. Plus I get distracted easily...I'm really painting a rosy picture here aren't I? Still, if you stick around, (I'm hoping) you may find something of quality here, and who knows, I don't think I'm THAT bad, right...right?

So yeah, vidjo games.

Deus Ex Human Revolution
Batman Arkham City
Portal+Portal 2
Mafia II
Total War:Shogun 2
Rayman Advance
Pokemon Crystal
Jurassic Park:Operation Genesis
Super Mario 64
House Of Dead III

Also, I have twitter now, even though I now feel like a complete sell out. Follow me and see how uninteresting I can be.


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