I have a small confession to make.
This will come as a shock to most, if not all, of the hardcore gamers out there, and I have shamed myself accordingly. In fact, I�m still waiting for the eternal wrath of Cthulhu to be brought down upon myself. Actually, you have to send in some paperwork, including a resume. Really, the process is complicated, so I�ll just skip it and get to the confession;
I have only truly completed less than 10 games
in my 10 years of gaming.
Yes, I know, blasphemy and what not, �how can I call myself a gamer�, �have Neiro ban this sick individual,� (please don�t, I love Destructoid), but first, allow me to clarify what I have just said with some background information.
I have played a whole two ton truck load of games, and, as I mentioned in my previous blog
, while I might not still have the 70+ game collection for my ex-Gamecube and on-his-deathbed Playstation 2, I did spend time with each and every one of them.
I just never completed them.
Honestly, I can�t tell you why I have the inability to complete most of the games I buy. I know it�s not time constraints, even with an advanced class, I still find time to burn/snipe/bonk people in Team Fortress 2, or get my ass kicked in BlazBlue. Hell, I�m starting to get over the fact that I lost all my game saves from when I had to get my PS3 exchanged, and I�m planning to go through Burnout Paradise to get my Burnout License again.
I�m also sure it�s not having an abnormal amount of games to play either. Like I mentioned earlier, I have a very small game collection, if you can even call it that. I�ve given all the games in my possession, as of right now, at least 4-8 hours of my time, the prize champion being Pok�mon Diamond, earning a whopping 400+ hours. I haven�t touched Diamond in 5 months.
I know it�s not the enjoyment factor. I greatly enjoyed the time I had with Fallout 3, but I haven�t even picked up the box
since May, and I bought the game in January. I remember having a blast killing all the people in Megaton with the Fatman, but lately, I have no urge to do that, or anything like it, even though I know I�ll have fun doing it.
And damnit, I still enjoy gaming. I (80% of the time, at least) enjoy the games I buy. I still buy games old and new. I just never complete them.
What seems to be the �problem� is that I�ll reach a point in playing a game where I�ll just stop and forget said game existed in my meager collection. Hell, I have to remind myself I bought a copy of Psychonauts from Steam. It�s as if something subliminal in my subconscious makes my mind reset itself, and once it�s finished rebooting, it already has a new game it wants to play, with no plan to go back and finish the old game what so ever, for no certain reason.
To speak truthfully, I�m fucking tired of that happening.
So yeah, I know I�m making a lot of changes in my gaming lifestyle (a lot being 2). I understand I�m 9 months late to New Year�s Resolutions and what not, and more importantly, I have only a few months till the Spring �10 Game Rush, but damnit, I want to be a better gamer. I want to be able to, one day, post my collection of games, my collection at that moment being over 80 games. I want to be able to sit down and talk about gaming more fluently. Hell, I want to make games for a career, and I believe that it�s these subtle changes that are going to help me accomplish those goals.
So I�m going to complete the games I buy, starting now. I�ve got a list, and I think I can finish it by the time Modern Warfare 2 drops, so I�ll be ready for that. I�ll keep my priorities straight, promising to give the unfinished games more time than the new ones (I can always play Scribblenauts at school). I�m going to complete all the games that come into my possession , unless said game is like Resistance 2, in which case I�ll try to get all the Achievements/Trophy�s I can before my eyes bleed.
Play me off, Hall & Oats.
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